Monday, June 29, 2009

Two of the WORST days ever

Yesterday (Sunday) and today have been two of the worst days on record.  This is especially disappointing, because after our last day of work on Friday, I was hoping for smooth sailing and nothing but relaxing and packing until we leave on Friday.  We were supposed to hop the border, because our visa ran out yesterday, but it turns out paying a few days of overstay charges was going to be about the same as traveling all day to the ultra-shitty Cambodian border, so we opted to just overstay our visas.  Anyway, crossing the trip to Cambodia off the list effectively removed the only potentially awful experience off our list of things to do before leaving.  Or so I thought…

Sunday morning started out excellently.  The cat was being super cute, we woke up early and Matt brought me a coffee in bed.  Then we spent a couple of hours talking about how much we love Meezer and hate people and fell back asleep for a late morning nap.  Then our landlord showed up and just barged into our house after calling us from outside 50 times while we were still sleeping.  When I went downstairs in my pj’s and expressed my displeasure with his rude entry into OUR home, he demanded that we go for lunch with him. No sense of boundaries whatsoever, I was [understandably] quite angry with him and told him no and was not particularly kind about it.  Anyway, it was true: we couldn't have lunch with him, because we had made plans to meet a friend at Future Park [local shopping mall] for 1:00 lunch to say our goodbyes.

So we went to Future Park, and it was ridiculously crowded, like it always is on Sundays. We definitely forgot the cell at home, but we didn't leave until 12:40, so I figured if he was going to call and cancel, anyone with common human decency would've done it before that point. So we waited at the Starbucks for him for about 90 minutes before we just gave up, ate and went home.  Not cool, I really dislike waiting.  We get home and there's a text message from him at 12:45 "Sorry guys, I'm not going to make it." Must have been some kind of top secret emergency he couldn't pry himself away from.  Instead just sent a passive aggressive text message.  Even a phone call would’ve been better, because then we would know at least he cared enough to be sure we got the information.  But we didn’t and instead wasted an entire afternoon waiting around.  We'll never know what his issue was, because A) he didn't tell us and B) I have no interest in making time for this crap again before we leave.  It wasn’t a complete waste, though; Matt bought some cool pants and I restocked on makeup.

Today started out very nicely.  We slept in, I got a cup of coffee in bed (again), started some laundry and then had a few errands to run.  We went to Tesco [Wal-mart] to get some cat food and water and grab some lunch, and there were two super cute shirts at a stall outside of the store.  We didn't have enough cash on us to buy everything and the shirts, so we had to run home to get more, since today of all days, I opted out of carrying my purse.  Then on the way home we got a flat tire, which we had to get that fixed.  Matt had to run home and grab cash (so we could pay for the tire fix) while I waited in the 42 degree heat as collateral on a $4 mechanic’s bill, and afterwards we decided to go BACK to Tesco with our cash to get my shirts.  Matt waited in the parking lot while I went to the lady's kiosk and, lo and behold: she wasn't there.  I waited 25 minutes for her to come back (I really wanted these shirts), but on our way back to the house, we ran out of gas.  So we "talked" to some Thais, and (from what we understood) they were going to go and get us some gas and come back. We waited about an hour, no one came back (apparently we misunderstood the situation) so we had to walk to Caltex and fill some water bottles with gas and walk back to our bike.  We made it home shortly after that, and at least it didn’t start raining until we arrived home safely, but I cannot WAIT to get out of here.  Hopefully we’ve used up all our bad luck now before our trip, and everything goes smoothly on Friday.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Today’s Thought

I love it when reality destroys idealism.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Monday, June 22, 2009

I don’t even particularly like Matt Good

A super gay quote that I super like.

Good Love/Bad Love

I Fall Down. You Get Up. Not A Sound Between Us.
Good love is a few months. Of bliss, of nothing wrongs, of sparkle, of tight gripping hands, of the inability to get close enough.
Bad love is a lifetime.
Bad love is the greatest test known to us. It is our most prized pain - so sought after, so hard to find. Bad love is work, giving-in, compromise, forgiveness, the unflinching support for another even at their most humiliated, their most vulnerable. Bad love is not on television, at the movies, on vacation, or at the bank. Bad love is not in the church, the temple, or under the dome. Bad love is not all around us.
Bad love is what we find when we let go enough to actually be found by someone else.

- Matt Good, February 14th, 2007

Friday, June 19, 2009

Friendship Quiz!

Please take this quiz.  If you score less than 8/12, you should never speak to me again.



Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I used to have a LIVEJOURNAL

Hahahaha, I totally forgot about it until today, so I went back to see what my last post was.  It’s funny how as much as things change, they still stay the same.

September 24, 2007

I've had such a shift in attitude; and it's not so much a complete changeover as I find I'm acting more on thoughts I'd had previously but managed to repress. I hate people, always have, likely always will. The thing that's suddenly different is that I avoid being around them at all costs now. I don't want to go out, I don't want to be involved at school anymore and I sure don't want to shop or leave my house. I've become a bit of a recluse, and it's not because I'm paranoid or because there's anything particularly entertaining at my house, it just bothers me to be around people at all.

I'm sick of plastering a smile on my face and feigning interest in 200 different peoples' stupid, identical, inane, and sickeningly boring lives.

I so badly want to disappear... There are about half a dozen people in my life that I actually feel like talking to or seeing, and the rest I could not care less about if I tried. This all sounds so depressing and even narcissistic but that's not even what it is anymore. It's more a situation of how gullible, stupid and ignorant the majority of people are has really gotten to me, and it puts me in a bad mood. I hate it when other people put me in a bad mood because it makes me feel out of control, the fact that they get to me so much. It's like I see people out and about and all of their actions make me wonder "Why? Why would someone act that way? Why would someone do that?" and I get very frustrated.

Sometimes it's like I'm the only one that notices things about other people. It's like I see these details and things that everyone else blocks out and it's staring me in the face all the time. I'm forever noticing things that others are oblivious to and it makes me crazy.

At first, I thought I lacked human emotion, but I realize now it's just that I lack empathy.  I have feelings, I love kitties.  I will almost always lie to avoid talking at length to someone that I'd rather not talk to.

That was nearly two years ago, and it’s like I’m reliving this entire thing AGAIN, but worse, because it’s Thailand and there’s no escaping Thais in Thailand.  Seriously, Thailand lacks common sense even more than your average Saskatoonian.  Sad, I know.  Matt and I watched Ong Bak 2 a while ago and remarked at how, even though it was set in the 1400’s, it was like they just asked everyone to please turn off their cell phones and don’t ride their motorbike through the shot.  Otherwise everything was EXACTLY the same.  Now I don’t know if that’s just brutal historical accuracy on the filmmaker’s part, or if Thailand really is that fucking backwards.  I’m a cog in the education system machine here, so my educated guess is leaning toward “Thailand really is that fucking backwards.”

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Facebook should give grammar lessons

Seriously, I think if they did, people might actually obtain basic grammar skills.

Today’s lesson:

Your = possessive

As in: Show me your boobs!

You’re = YOU + ARE

As in: You’re an idiot. OR You’re gay.

Were = past form of “to be”

As in: We were totally hammered.

We’re = WE + ARE

As in: We’re totally breaking up.


I really don’t think it’s that hard, and I’m really tired of seeing shit like this go on.  Lots of people will say, “Relax, it’s just Facebook.” But these sort of sloppy writing skills will leak into one’s everyday life and eventually show up on an official email or job application, or worse yet, a cover letter.  If you’re spelling the same words wrong time and time again, why should anyone believe you know how to spell them right at all?  How unprofessional.  If you can’t take the time to proofread two lines before hitting ENTER on your Facebook status, why should you expect to be taken seriously elsewhere? 
And don’t bring up spellcheck, either.  Spellcheck wouldn’t notice your/you’re errors or if you typed is instead of in, much editing is still required by a human.  And what if you’re in a situation where you have to write something WITHOUT using a computer?  You probably don’t want to look like an idiot in that situation either.  Getting into the habit of poor grammar, or simply not knowing in the first place, does not translate well into everyday life.  So take a few minutes, and familiarize yourself with the grammar rules of your native language, as well as a few basic spellings while you’re at it.

Monday, June 1, 2009

The Nuclear Debate

An article from the StarPhoenix “news”paper in Saskatoon is haunting me from overseas.  Bob Fink doesn’t seem to know what he’s talking about.

If you don’t want to read it, I’ve been so kind as to write a short summary:

The first part is some nonsense about Nuclear Power actually producing a lot of carbon emissions, the government and media are involved in a conspiracy to make you love nuclear power by censoring bad informaion, and some other “facts” that are probably not true and the last part is a bunch of information on the Chernobyl incident in 1986 Russia.

I have strong feelings for Nuclear Power, so I apologize if that comes through too strongly,  but I’ve tried to present true facts as they are, instead of doing as this guy did (writing with such a huge bias that it even makes FOX anchors like Bill O’Reilly a little nervous [seriously, that guy is a slanted, senile old man who will likely get a whole other post sometime soon]). 

I'm not really sure what Sir Fink-a-lot is talking about right at the beginning or where he got his facts. The processes of running a Nuclear Power plant generates no CO2, some CO2 emissions arise from the construction of the plant, the mining of the uranium, the enrichment of the uranium, its conversion into fuel, its final disposal and the final plant decommissioning. The amount ofCO2 generated by these secondary events depends on the method used (gas diffusion vs. gaseous centrifuge) to enrich the uranium and the source of electricity used for the enrichment process. So extrapolating, if you had an existing nuclear power plant powering the enrichment process, that would make the nuclear power plant itself nearly 100% emissions free.
I think what people don't understand is that nuclear power isn't supposed to be lumped in with "green" energy. It's just a lot more efficient than wind or solar at the moment.  No one is pretend there aren’t some wrinkles in the whole plan to be ironed out, but this guy just doesn’t seem to know what part needs ironing.

"Government and industry already have all these facts available, but pretend the reactor is still plausible."

This is laughable and just shows how much the author really knows about nuclear power.  NO ONE pretends that the reactor used at Chernobyl (type RBMK) is still a good idea. Not one educated person. There are still a bunch being used in Russia, but no one is building new ones ever again. That was Russian technology from the 50's and is considered all but obsolete today.

I'm not sure about all the Chernobyl facts there, but I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt and assume he did some research, I’m too tired of Thailand to bother fact-checking.  Anyway, true or not, all of that information is totally irrelevant to the current nuclear power debate.  In fact, one of my biggest pet peeves in the nuclear power debate (besides people pronouncing it NUKE-U-LER) is when  Chernobyl is discussed.

Now, loving Science first and foremost and above all others, I will agree that there is NEVER zero risk, because that would imply zero probability of disaster.  And that’s impossible.
For everything.
That is just math--the probability of things happening is never zero, there are anomalies that one simply cannot predict (see: Barack Obama’s election to the White House).

However, I can say beyond a reasonable doubt, that the probability of a Chernobyl-type disaster occurring in Canada is INFINITESMALLY small. Using information about Chernobyl as a reason not to use nuclear power is akin to comparing the current working conditions or safety standards in Canada to Russia's in 1986 (OK, that picture might be a bit older than 1986, but still, Soviet Russia). We all see how ridiculous that is, so I don't know why anyone will accept Chernobyl as a valid argument against nuclear energy..

Nuclear power is not perfect, far from it. But the biggest challenge facing nuclear power today is NOT the safety of the reactors, it is dealing with the waste products. Wasting time telling people about Chernobyl isn't advancing the cause or fixing our energy problems by offering viable solutions.  All it amounts to is complaining.  The fact of the matter is that, barring huge developments in high-efficiency solar panels, nuclear power IS the best bet to reduce carbon emissions.

Following are stats for Sweden's Vattenfall plants:

The total amount CO2 emitted per KW-Hr of electricity produced is 3.3 grams per KW-Hr of produced power. Vattenfall measures its CO2 output from Natural Gas to be 400 grams per KW-Hr and from coal to be 700 grams per KW-Hr.

There's no pretending that isn't a HUGE benefit to our atmosphere.  Nuclear power makes sense, and more time and research should be devoted to nuclear waste management or recycling.